BABALON:
The Vow of Truth

Seven months.
One Sacred vow.
A life that answers back.

7 Month Cohort

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You already know the truth about who you are and what you want.

You're a potent leader and a creator - which means you've already experienced over and over again the thrill of unleashing a previously-hidden side of yourself on the world.
 
The trouble is, you've come to a dead end.  

Ironically, the dead end has arisen not from your failure but from your success.

You've successfully created a nook of security for yourself, built on what was once true but now - alas - no longer is.

Because you're so good at leading others, you think "I should be able to find my way out of this, I can do it myself" - but the thing is, your dead end is made out of a primal drive - the drive to feel safe - and that's not something any human can overcome alone, without divine help and loving support.

 
So you:

Pay no real attention to your night-time dreams, even when they're disturbing.

Forgive your partner for the cutting remark (again).

Create the offer that matches what you think people want more than what you honestly wish to give.

Find yourself perpetually anxious about meeting other people's expectations of you even when you don't remember agreeing to them.

Feel gut-punched when the likes, views, shares, accolades and purchases you've come to count on for assurance of your worth in the world don't roll in.

Comfort yourself with food, scrolling, and day-dreams about how great people in your life will be to you once you've successfully nurtured them enough.

 
It’s not that you’re terrible - far from it.

The problem is that you’ve got tremendous super-powers of being “good.”

Kind, forgiving, compassionate, patient.

You’d be a saint if you weren’t so resentful! Lol

You’re resentful because you've unwittingly turned your super-powers against yourself in your human, all-too-human quest to maintain your security.

The tricky bit is this: your life answers you exactly as honestly as you've spoken to it.

Your signal has gotten distorted.

 
The spectacular synchronicities don't come, because for some time now you've given reality nothing true and clear and constant to respond to.

You've unwittingly been transmitting on a frequency designed not to be heard, and then feeling sad that nothing brilliant seems to answer your call.

This isn't a flaw in your character.

This is the result of an unconscious vow you made long ago, out of a need to survive, and despite your wondrous creative feats, it's one that you have not yet fully broken.

We're going to break it.

The BABALON cohort is a seven-month initiatory container for leaders and creators who would rather be whole than good.

It's built on one deceptively simple erotic practice: telling the truth.

Telling the truth moment-to-moment, about what it takes to be in exquisite relation with you, and being willing to endure the pain of losing whatever can't survive that truth.
Here, we work with truth as a portal.

Something grand happens when you completely stop lying to yourself and to others about what you want and who you are.

Reality responds and re-organizes.

The world you've been holding at arm's length comes up and flirts with you.

Your dreams become numinous. Your soul’s people arrive. Other people leave, and you discover that their leaving is A-Okay.

Coincidence stops being a word you can use with a straight face.
And underneath all of it rises that unmistakable, spine-tingling sense that your life has not at all been a series of accidents.
You realize your future Evolving Self has been reaching back for you the whole time.

Here's the strangest thing this work will show you: you are not only moving forward into a destiny.

Your destiny has always been moving backward into you.

The person you will become on the far side of these seven months — the one who no longer betrays herself for safety, who says the dangerous hot true thing and watches reality reorganize magickally around her like how bees build their honeycombs around sacred icons — she isn't a stranger waiting at the end of a road.

Rather, she’s “the secret chief” who’s always been arranging the clues:

The tarot card that jumped out of the deck as you shuffled.
The book that fell open to the right page.
The relationship that had to end exactly when it did.
The ache that wouldn't resolve.
The fact that you happen to be reading this right now.

That was Her, that was your own soul in the trans-temporal ecstasy of Self-Realization, that was you-as-Babalon calling backward through time, setting the synchronicities like a trail of fire so you'd arrive, on schedule, at the moment you finally stopped lying.
This is what Babalon knows that the careful, muffled self can't: time is not a line you're trapped on.

Time is a strange loop that loves you.

And when you tell the whole truth and stand by it, the loop closes.

Past and future touch.

And you feel, in your lit-up heart, that you're not building a life from scratch. Rather, you're recognizing one that was always already yours.

MYSTERY: BABALON THE GREAT is the archetype of soul in ecstatic Self-Realization.

She’s riding the 7-headed Beast of the world of duality: she’s received Him into herself with lust and joy, and through her reception, she’s mastered Him.
Babalon is the erotic, surrendered, total YES to reality.

She’s the embrace that holds nothing back and asks for nothing to be different before it's loved.

She's the end of the negotiation.

She's stopped bargaining with what is, stopped trying to earn Her existence, and in that surrender She becomes the very thing reality can't stop giddily replying to with gift upon gift.

This is Existential Kink turned all the way up.

Here, you don't merely make peace with what is, you consummate your soul with it.

Here, we pour the held-back life force back into the world and we feel the world pour back.
To enter this container is to apprentice yourself to Her.

There’s absolutely no belief required — the transformation happens as practice, as a frequency, a vow you keep out loud, in your real relationships, with real stakes, until the High Strangeness of Self-Remembrance becomes ordinary and the ordinary becomes holy.

Each month is in the BABALON cohort serves a complete alchemical turn.

You're held in a stable, predictable structure precisely because the work itself is destabilizing, and destabilizing truth needs a strong vessel, not a soft one.

 
The structure goes like this:

The Transmission & The Challenge.

A live transmission where I activate the month's terrain and I hand you a specific, real-world truth challenge.

The challenge is something you'll actually do, out loud, in your actual life, with actual stakes.

The Working.

Now comes time to live the challenge. To move and feel the resistance rise, to meet the heartbreak risk, and to do the thing anyway.

This is how the alchemy actually occurs. It happens in the shaky moment before you say the true thing to the person who needs to hear it.

The Q&A.

You bring what came up for you during the Transmission and the Working, ask me questions about it, and I guide you forward.

The Depth Integration Process.

In BABALON we use profound guided processes in the Telos Method tradition of my mentor, Dr. Robert Dee McDonald. These miraculous processes, grown from the fertile soil of depth psychology, hypnosis, and Hermeticism, take the month's truth all the way down into the body and into the unconscious, so the change reorganizes you at your core instead of staying an intellectual theory.

 
The Truth Seats.

The heart of the container. We gather, and we practice a crucial art: asking each other deep questions and telling the truth out loud, in front of witnesses, with nowhere to hide. This is where the vow stops being a private idea and becomes a lived capacity. This is where you find out, in your own shaking voice, that you can survive being fully seen. Most people have never once been in a room like this. It alters what you believe is possible for the rest of your life.

When this journey began I was excited, hopeful and so very ready to shift the patterns in me around seriousness, density, overwork, and control. After 6 months of TRYING so hard and “DOING EVERYTHING RIGHT” I was exhausted and at the end of my rope. I felt that the only thing left for me to do was step into a place I had never truly gone before…. One of lightness, play, and magical collaboration.

I had received such beautiful and immediate fulfillment of my wishes for easeful money and client acquisition that I was riding HIGH- ready for more miracles and ease to flow my way. So BABALON was a perfectly aligned energy. I felt freedom and permission and excitement!

- Bella Combest

So far in my time experiencing BABALON, I’ve been delighted to step into a never-failing portal to trust, awe, wonder, and connection to my larger self. It’s also felt beyond nurturing to have a loving guide through this biblical-level astrological season we’re currently in. the container has given me permission to embrace both my YES to the most expansive, hilarious, unfolding of my dream timeline as well as my NO to the most expansive, hilarious, unfolding of my dream timeline. Carolyn is a once in a generation (maybe even incarnation) teacher & I thank BABALON every day for her entry into my reality!

- Cait

Since joining my life has just accelerated in unbelievable ways I’m moving into actions that I’d dreamed about but struggled to get off the ground. Learning to be more authentic and magickal. I love that this group offers accountability and wonderful practices, but also doesn’t take it all too seriously, so I can always jump back in however I am able. That feels light and I receive such good insights from the wonderful people here.

- Jessica Gentes

Carolyn is irresistible and any opportunity to work with her is a gift! I recommend joining BABALON as an opportunity to remember what your soul came here to do.

- Elon Cameron

I never regret doing any of Carolyn’s courses. There’s always something worthwhile, whether it be deep dives and different ways of thinking/understanding, words put to things I have trouble describing/identifying or ways to engage more intimately with myself in and through those processes.

- Beata Bee

I felt like there were big transitions happening in my life, ending a relationship, a new career, turning 60, and something deeper in terms of internal transformation. I was attracted to a magical container that would support me and help me FEEL and INTEGRATE those changes. BABALON felt very timely.

- Beth Jones

BABALON has helped me to engage in a weird freaky culture of gnosis and to play with fellow seekers and rabble rousers.

- Sasha Irby

I love BABALON, the magical rituals taught here are juicy. I love the shadow work- and that there is a wicked fun side to it, while at the same time serious magical work is done.

- Julia Erle

You won't leave the BABALON cohort more self-aware. You're already self-aware.
You'll leave more dangerous, more hot, more met, and more alive than your old hope had a framework for.
You'll stop performing the “easy” version of you and you’ll find out who stays in your life.

You’ll come up against your deepest wounds, and you’ll be guided to transmute them with the Depth Integration Processes.

You'll feel the clean, electric relief of being actually loved for who you actually are.

You’ll say the true sentence in the moment instead of three days later in your head.

You’ll feel resentment and fear vacate your system, flushed out by the radiant light of truth and love.
You'll feel your life force come back from everywhere you'd been leaking it,  and you’ll arrive home in your own body as creative fire and eros and nerve.
You’ll notice: the world will start to answer you.

This won't happen because you “placed an order” on a vision board.

 Babalon doesn't give orders to reality, she surrenders into it.

You’ll discover that the poetry of the world starts answering you with the most stunning “rhymes” because for the first time you've given it something blazingly true to respond to.

For leaders who are perceptive, capable, and stifled at a level they hardly want to admit.

For creators who can feel the gap between the life they're running and the life that's actually theirs.

For those who are done with introspection that goes nowhere, who want change in their behavior and in their relationships not just in their rhetoric.

For those drawn to Babalon, to the erotic, to the uncanny and the genuinely strange, and who don't need the raw weird magick translated into something more respectable before they'll feel safe.

For those who feel, even now, the thread of their soul’s destiny pulling backward toward them.

BABALON is not for anyone who wants insight without risk or pain.

The risk and the pain, dear friends, is part of the delicious Babalon medicine.

(( She’s MYSTERY: THE GREAT, the Holy Harlot, Mother of Abominations, drunk on the blood of the saints. She’s not a nice soft-spoken yoga teacher lady. ))

BABALON is not anyone who wants transformation done to them while they stay comfortable.

You'll be asked to move, out loud, uncomfortably, in your real life, every month.

BABALON is not for anyone who needs the strangeness sanded down into psychology before they'll come near it.

This isn't that, and pretending otherwise would cheat you.

BABALON is not for anyone unwilling to take the vow and mean it.

The vow is the whole door. There's no entering around it.

Seven months. One vow kept with real stakes.

Thus I invite you to a life that, met at last with the whole truth, stops being something you endure and becomes something that joyfully answers the loud and clear frequency of your expressed soul. 
The person on the far side of this initiation is already arranging your arrival. You can feel Her doing it.
The only question left is whether you'll keep Her waiting.

LIVE COHORT MEETINGS

The live cohort meetings happen Tuesdays at 1 pm Eastern.

All events are recorded and can be accessed later.

PRIVATE TELEGRAM

When you join, you gain instant access to the BABALON private Telegram.

IMMORTAL COLLEGE COURSES

When you join BABALON, you gain access to the life-changing core courses of the Immortal College:

• Force of Nature
• Red Magick
• Battle Magick

Access all these at your leisure.

EVERY MONTH

Each month except June, there’s 4 calls:

• Transmission
• Q&A
• Depth Integration Process
• Truth Seats

(NOTE: in June there are 3 calls. Our first Truth Seats call will be in July, due to the fact that the cohort starts in the middle of June and there’s not enough Tuesdays)

THE WORKING

And throughout the month, there’s the Working - a lived practice of truth, given during the Transmission.